dying swan seeks daredevil
for frills, kills and telephone bills
must enjoy long walks on short piers
experience of natural disasters a must

i pleaded with them to let him join the band but nobody listened.
how come i'm the only one without a nose?

1. the most memorable winter
2. i could still run
3. hard ground, no gloves
4. i don't know if he believed in heaven or not and i dared not ask and he could not speak
5. i was hungry but did not want to go home
6. i started to believe at some point that i was my father, not just like him
7. of course i imagine him under the ground, no doubt so does she but all we talk about are the hyacinths and miniature daffodils that make his bed
8. always coming back to this / these thoughts / this field / that day
9. winter sun / son in my eyes

i'm scared.
i have an overwhelming desire to re-organize my whole life.
but not today.
today i just want some soup.